Fighting the Entire City and Schizophrenia

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My name is Naveed Asghar Jan. I am from Pakistan. My age is 33 years. I was first diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 22 years old in November 2006. I was at an engineering university in the second semester.

First, I want to tell you about my childhood. My childhood was not awesome at all. I lived five years of my childhood in a village when my father went to the UK for a higher education. In the village, I experienced bullying from people, which I consider broke my personality because I was so young. My parents were always distant from me so, I was neglected of some sort. So my childhood was filled with more negative experiences than positive ones.

On the 4th of November 2006, I first experienced the symptoms of schizophrenia. It was an auditory hallucination and it was abusive. I was so scared at that time. The next day was a very different story. It seemed that the whole city knew me. That I am a very bad person and they want to harm me because I am a bad person. I was so disturbed because I felt that all these things happened in reality. I had no clue that I am ill and I’ve never heard about schizophrenia before. Somehow my father knew I was talking strangely and took me to a psychiatrist. The psychiatrist prescribed me medicine and then I returned to the hostel to continue my study because I did not want to leave university. I did not take the medicine because I thought it was useless. The doctor did not tell me I have schizophrenia.

So I spent the whole 2007 in hallucinations and fighting with the whole city of people. In February 2008, I gave up and told myself that the city filled with negative people did not allow me to continue my studies so I left the university unwillingly.

In 2008, I returned to my home where my parents live. There they gave me the medicine, but again, I refused to take it. I was once again fighting the whole city. 2008 passed, so did 2009. In 2010, I started taking the medicine and my situation improved. I decided to continue my studies and took admission in the university.

At that time I developed so many complications which I think were due to spending so many years in psychosis. I have very low self-confidence. Somehow I graduated in 2006. Life passes on and I take medicine regularly. In 2017, I got accepted in the local university and I now continue my studies.

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