Hello, my name is Rachel and I am an addict. I have been in recovery for the last 6 years and 4 months. I am not going to lie and say that it's been an easy road because that is far from the truth. I guess I should start from the beginning. Just a little background as to why I started using pain killers to begin with. In March of 2006, I started having the worst headaches I've ever experienced. These headaches were not typical headaches. I suffered from them every day, from the time I woke up until the time I went to bed, get up and repeat. What it felt like was someone took both hands and cupped my head and squeezed as hard as they could.