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In June 2017, I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis and with that, everything changed. The diagnosis didn’t leave me surprised or shocked, but the creeping, boiling anger that came with it definitely left me shocked.
For some reason, I was angry with myself and I couldn’t determine why. Was it because things I use to be able to do were not difficult if not impossible? Hell, I couldn’t even open a jar of pickles on most days (thank god for my husband)! I blamed all these things on myself as if I were responsible for getting Rheumatoid Arthritis. I blamed myself, my body, my choices and whatever I could think of as the cause of this.
It took several months and a lot of reading and soul-searching. I came to understand that I wasn’t at fault, that I hadn’t done anything to be responsible for this. I didn’t make myself sick or, by some strange karma, bring this upon myself. I had to stop fighting myself and accept my new life so I could get a handle on this new journey.
Sure; I still have days where I am left angry, depressed, defeated and ready to give up, but at least now I know to no longer blame myself for being broken.