I am 31 years old. I was diagnosed with Bipolar and Schizophrenia disorder when I was around 11 years old. I have been through so much in my life. Even the worst person wouldn’t wish that. I have been raped, Beaten, Used and Abused, Mentally and physically and sexually. I have been torn and broken. I have 4 kids and after 20 years, I am still hanging in here because my kids are my life.
At the age of 19, I was sent to prison for running over a police officer in my car. I was taken away from my son to be in jail. I also suffered from self-mutilation. Not to harm myself, But to feel the pain. The physical pain makes my mental pain easy. I don’t understand why, but that’s what I’ve realized. After doing it many times, I became addicted to cutting myself. I am very scared at times and embarrassed. I don’t want my children to look at me like some freak.
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I am an awesome mother. My son’s father was murdered right in front of me. I was raped and beaten by the people who are supposed to love and protect me. I never had love and affection I needed for growing up. That’s where my first son came. Having him I knew I’d have to live forever. I knew I had nothing or no one to worry about.
Today. I am going through so much. But I feel like I have my life in more order than I had it before. I would like to talk more if I can. To tell more in details as to what else I’ve been through if that’s okay. Please feel free to contact me.