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Around the end of 2012, I came in contact for the first time with anxiety. I experienced a small panic attack when I began to feel a tightness in my chest and from then on, everything began to go downhill for me. My Anxiety got in the way of my social life, my job, and at the time, my relationship, and as a result… I lost all those things and fell into a deep depression which resulted in agoraphobia to develop. I spent most my time indoors because I was too anxious to go out and face the world due to the fact that I was always afraid of losing my life.
Death has been a very scary subject to me, I’ve feared it all my life. I grew up with most of my family and to this day none of them have passed on (which I am thankful for) so I have never gone to funerals nor seen a dead body for most of my life. For a good portion of 2013, I was in an out of the hospital due to panic attacks and it began to become a big problem for my parents so I began to feel lots of guilt and sadness because of it.
Eventually, I learned to calm myself down when I felt anxious towards a situation and in turn, it helped me overcome my agoraphobia. As more time passed by, I learned to speak up more about how I was feeling physically and emotionally and that helped relieve a lot of tension that I didn’t know I was holding inside of me the whole time. In 2014 I began to finally find the courage to find a new job but it took me until June of 2015 to finally get one.
Around that same time I had found a new love interest as well, but unfortunately, it ended on my birthday, which made me believe I would never find love with anyone. In December of that year, I had met someone new who I felt finally understood what I had been going through. We are still happily together.
I left my job in October of 2016 and have yet to find a new one, but I stirred up the courage to go back to school and am currently almost finished with my course in the IT field. I still struggle with anxiety on some days but now it’s mostly just physical pains that I’ve been seeing specialists for. It’s still difficult to get by sometimes but I’m learning to remain optimistic and I have confidence that I will start to be completely back to who I was before anxiety came into my life.
