I want to feel again

I want to feel again

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I have been battling with depression for 6 years now. I have been on medication for 3 years. The most difficult part of battling depression was having the people around you and close to you understand depression. Depression makes you see things that may not be. It makes you feel things that are not real. It makes you think things that are not true.

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Overthinking has sucked the energy from my brain and my body now feels exhausted. I cannot remember the last time I slept properly. I am at a constant war with myself. I have this constant feeling of a hole in my chest – a hollow feeling I cannot explain. Daily holding tears back because I don’t want to give in to this evil disease that has taken over my body and soul.

Depression can happen at any stage of your life. Mine began when my whole life was content. Everything fell into place how I imagined, but my mind couldn’t handle this. My mind felt this to be too good to be true. A feeling of unhappiness dawned up on me. Depression slowly starting creeping in. I turned to alcohol to help me put my mind at ease, but as the days went on and I found myself drinking more and more it appeared that the alcohol was just a temporary solution and it seemed to be opening up a door wider and wider, each hungover moving to let the depression in.

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I eventually found I could not battle this alone. Took aid of medication. Medication gave me pain relief but also made me numb. I cannot remember the last time I was able to feel emotions. I want to feel happiness again. I want to feel sadness again. I want to feel excited again. I want to feel emotions again. I want to feel again.

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