Dealing with the Horrors of Binge Eating Disorder

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Back in 2012, I experienced one of the hardest times of my life – I lost my son. I was hurting so bad and didn’t know how to handle it, so I turned to food. At the time, I weighed 160 pounds, and now I weigh 301 pounds.

Whenever I’m sad or angry, or I feel any other emotion that I can’t handle I overeat. Once I start it’s just impossible to stop. I could eat two large pizzas, wings, an order of cheese sticks and a pan of brownies and sill want more. I’ve lost so many friendships and relationships because of it.

Read more: My Journey to a Healthy Life

I can’t even play with my daughter like I would like because I don’t have the energy and I’m always hurting from trying to carry my weight. I’ve tried so many times to lose the weight, but I don’t know how to stop. I developed so many health problems that I have lost count. I have trouble breathing, walking, sleeping, and I now can’t eat certain things without my body rejecting it.

Read more: When Restriction Became My Best Friend

There isn’t a day that goes by without me hurting because my feet are always swollen, and my knees and ankles aren’t used to holding so much weight. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror without feeling disgusted and wanting to cry because I don’t even recognize myself. How do you go from a size zero to a three x in six years? I am hoping that one day I will be able to get back to my normal self and be able to participate in my daughter’s life and get to actually watch her grow up and have the life she deserves.

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