I have an Addiction and I don’t Know How to Fight it

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It’s been three long years.

Oh, some days it seems the years have flown by, but the reality is my mother’s gone and I am left with life-crippling addiction…. between meth and depression I don’t know what to do.

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I know I love my family and I just miss me I don’t know how to find me. I feel lost barely existing I hate it I hate myself. I don’t know how to stop. I don’t know how to get back to living I know I was happy once before.

Now I just feel empty lost. I hid this addiction for nearly three years from my husband and my family. 6 months ago my husband found a pipe in scales and I had to explain to him.

Read more: My Addiction Journey

Explaining addiction to someone who’s never had an addiction who’s never struggled with depression is very difficult. He’s lost respect for me.

In the last two-and-a-half years I’ve lost my mother six months ago I’ve lost my brother a year ago I lost my grandmother. I feel alone in a room full of people. I just want to isolate myself.

When I lost my job I felt like I lost my identity.

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